Kinda liking my work at guardian! :) Considering to be a retail pharmacist next time. I think I am more suited to this environment where i can meet more people, instead of the hospital environment which could be stressful and at the same time, the environment may be too sterile or ‘dead’ for me. Would prefer meeting people who are less sickly than those in the hospital. But of course, would like to try out working in the hospital for a few years before jumping ship. Now’s only the start of Year 3 for me, 2 more years to go before i make my final decision which could change my life.

Past week of learning with my preceptor has been fun. The learning process was faster than i thought! Hopefully i can start to dispense soon, but first i need to get myself more familiarized with all the medications! Still can’t get hold of all those dosage sigh!! Although standing for long periods really kills my feet, i really don’t mind at all :) My preceptor is nice and the staff there are friendly too. Gonna have another 5 more weeks of learning before school starts!

Started on this exercise plan that Nic came up with to try to make me exercise more. We’re gonna go gymming every Sunday morning at Utown gym! Never been there before but that place is really nice and the machines are new. :) The aches and sores after the gym was a little unbearable during work today, but the long term effects of it will not make me regret this!!! Time to shape a healthier and fitter me! 

Actually i had a few tasks on my to-do list for this holiday.

Completed a few, but didn’t manage to pull through and continue. Hahaha!

First was cooking! We went to the supermarket in the morning to get ingredients, but he cooked it in the end. NOT MY ACCOMPLISHMENT. SO SAD but at least i helped with chopping and slicing. Food turned out good though! Had loads of fun in the kitchen, we’ve never seen each other cook before so it’s kinda refreshing :)

Next was baking! For the past 6 weeks i only baked banana chocolate muffins. They were successful!! No more nutrient broth smell cos i used riped banana this time HAHA why was i so dumb the previous time. Wanted to learn a few more recipes, let’s see if the next 6 weeks of precept allows me to do so!

Lastly, exercise. I didn’t go jogging a single time in this holidays and i can feel myself growing fatter. :( Laziness always gets into me. At least i tried to do some yoga poses or some stretches and push-ups and sit-ups and crunches to make me feel less unfit. Talking abt this, i’m gonna sign up for a 5km run! I think i need some practice before this hahahahaha.

P.S. I actually thought of posting because of wanjing who reminded me to keep my blog updated hahaha! :)

So many things happened over the course of one week. Predicted and unpredicted. 

I guess life is just like that, we have to accept whatever that comes. 

One more week till i start my preceptorship, gonna prep myself up! 

One more week of school till the end of the semester! Time passes really fast!

Gonna focus and study hard for exams because I really want to prove to myself that i can do wayyyyy better than last semester. :)

Nevertheless, this semester was much more fun with much more love :) 

Was just reading through my blog posts from one year ago, that’s like around the end of year 1. The total number of posts from then till now, probably around 6 HAHA that’s like an average of one post every 2 months. 

Realised that i have always been using this blog as a mean of stress relief and also to rant my thoughts. While reading through previous posts, i realised also that i was always so excited for upcoming events no matter how tired i can be, no matter how much time i need to sacrifice to do everything. Now, i just feel tired. Idk why but recently i feel so exhausted. It may be due to the mid-terms test and concurrent intensive choir rehearsals. Sometimes i blame myself for having too many commitments, such that i deprive myself of study time. I feel so disadvantaged knowing that my classmates could fully utilize their time to study for tests, while i have to rush home as soon as possible to cramp everything in before i get too tired. Most of the time i’m too tired after practices to do anything else, last minute cramping at 12 midnight coupled with exhaustion just don’t work very well. Sometimes i really feel so scared that i will flunk the test because of this, i feel like just quitting every other commitments that  i’m having. Past few weeks have been stressful and i’m just glad that today i can give myself a little break before choir practices come rolling in again. 

Speaking about choir, i’m just glad that everything is coming to an end soon. Although i admit i feel quite unprepared for this upcoming VV'13. I have no idea why, even though practices have been intensive i just don’t feel that i would be able to perform well on that day. Seems like being an SL can be quite stressful sometimes too because any mistake from the section is because of your fault or negligence. It’s only 11 more days to VV'13, and i hope all of us can really put in our 100% for this and make this a success once again. Come to think of it, i always see a very steep curve in our performance when the important day is coming. Suddenly everyone remembers when to add in the dynamics, suddenly everyone knows what kind of sound to produce at which sections, suddenly the movements become sharp and synchronized. Right now, i think the curve is only at 30%, 70% more to go for a concert ready performance and we know we can and we’ll always do it. 

Another thought that has been coming to my mind is about quitting choir. I know many people associate me with choir whenever they see me. I will definitely feel odd if i say that i’m no longer in choir, or if i’m not attending practices anymore, or if my monday and thursday nights are free. One part of me tells me to quit, because of the exhaustion, because of the tests, because of the worries, because of the stress of handling both work and singing. Traveling has never been so tiring before. I always enjoyed taking the train home myself after choir to have some alone time or to just rest my mind. Now it’s just different, maybe because of the increase stress level and workload i have to handle. Another part of me tells me to stay, because of my passion for singing, because of my love for music, because of the bond i have with my beloved friends that i can’t bear to leave. It’s like this angel and devil thing that flies around my 2 ears telling me what to do. Really don’t know which to choose because i know workload is just gonna increase as the years pass. But i really would love to continue doing what i really like to do. Sigh i really don’t know which way to turn but this decision is only for myself to make. 

Past few weeks have not been very good to me, i just want my summer holidays to come fast. But then my summer holidays don’t seem very exciting either. Angst la feel so sick of life suddenly urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

hi lover this post is for you <3

Christmas this year is gonna be so awesome :)